Thoughts

I have so many thoughts, as I don't talk I have a lot of thoughts and most of them bad.
I always think something bad going to happen and when I do talk what I'm thinking it wrong and it causes problems, maybe I should shut up and say nothing, my husband says I'm not rash, but I'm. only saying my thoughts as I have always done.
At least I don't experience bad dreams anymore, just have trouble sleeping, my head is full of stuff, but by now   I should not feel this way.
I do think a lot my speaking voice not good and I cant get things out quick enough, so I'm left alone with my thoughts.